hi, i’m tamara.

"What does it feel like?" he asked, while we hiked along Bear's Den through the pine needles and summer humidity. Strange. We'd only been friends for about 2 hours and 45 minutes, but I'd already told him some of my darkest secrets. Hesitating while I searched for the right words, I realized he was the … Continue reading hi, i’m tamara.

because of your faith.

"And so you became a model to all the believers...The Lord's message rang out from you...your faith in God has become known everywhere." - 1 Thessalonians 1:7-8 "In all our distress and persecution we were encouraged about you because of your faith." - 1 Thessalonians 3:7 This week I have been reading through 1 Thessalonians … Continue reading because of your faith.

untitled.

If you have a story about mental illness—whether personal or concerning a loved one—please consider sharing your experience, either by writing a guest post, or doing an interview with me. Even if you aren’t at a place yet where you feel comfortable disclosing your name, the church body needs your voice. Let’s shine a light … Continue reading untitled.

listen.

If you have a story about mental illness—whether personal or concerning a loved one—please consider sharing your experience, either by writing a guest post, or doing an interview with me. Even if you aren’t at a place yet where you feel comfortable disclosing your name, the church body needs your voice. Let’s shine a light … Continue reading listen.

love that surpasses knowledge.

This week I have been reading through Ephesians, and I was struck anew about how wonderful this passage of scripture is: Ephesians 3:14-21 14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every familya]">[a]in heaven and on earth derives its name.16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your … Continue reading love that surpasses knowledge.

a not so welcome surprise.

Last Saturday I had plans to join in a D&D [Dungeons and Dragons] one-shot with friends. It was Christmas themed. I had designed my favorite character yet and really invested in her backstory and skills. I had a Christmas sweater, a festive hat, and I had planned a bunch of holiday treats to bring. I … Continue reading a not so welcome surprise.

thankful body.

If you have an eating disorder, you know that recovery is not a one-and-done thing. I'm not talking about a treatment center or recovery program -- those can certainly be one-time things. I'm talking about the everyday, 24-7, constant reality of living with an eating disorder. There are moments when ED is quiet, but he … Continue reading thankful body.

holiday mindfulness.

Everyone can agree that the holidays are both wonderful and stressful. But not everyone realizes that people with eating disorders are under extra pressure during the October to January months. I hosted a Friendsgiving party this past week, and while I love planning events, I hate the mental preparation that goes into actual hosting them. … Continue reading holiday mindfulness.

lion’s breath.

This past week I found myself regularly needing to do a good old lion's breath: Lion's breath is the breathing technique, or pranayama, which goes with simhasana, or lion pose. It is a powerful breathing method that includes a forceful exhalation. The name refers to the fierce lion-like expression of the yogi's face and the roaring sound of the breath … Continue reading lion’s breath.

reroute.

Lately, I have felt like I have been in a rut. After a month of travelling and busyness, it was hard to adjust back to my pre-October schedule. What had been working well the past few months just wasn't working anymore, and I had to do that scary changing-up-my-routine thing. I thrive on having my … Continue reading reroute.