joker.

Joker’s premiere at the 76th Venice International Film Festival [8/31] draws an eight-minute standing ovation for Phillips and Phoenix, along with a critical outpouring of praise for the actor’s performance as Fleck, a mentally ill sad sack and aspiring comedian who remakes himself as an icon of violent societal overthrow. Initial shock that Warner Bros. would deem … Continue reading joker.

always remember.

Each year when 9/11 occurs, I reflect on how much life changed after that day in 2001. While I didn't personally lose anyone in the attacks, I know I lost a little bit of myself the day the towers fell. On September 11, 2001, I was twelve. That morning we were sitting at the kitchen … Continue reading always remember.

reason to stay.

One thing you might not know about me is that I am afraid of heights. But it’s a little more complicated than you might think. It’s not that I’m afraid of falling. It’s the fear that I might give in to the urge to jump. Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Thankfully, being actively suicidal … Continue reading reason to stay.

burnout.

Lately I've felt like a body of anxiety. Mentally, I've been overthinking, over-stressing, and obsessing over every little thing. Physically, I get headaches, stomachaches, and cold sweats. Emotionally, I'm irritable and push everyone away. Photo by nikko macaspac on Unsplash It happens sometimes. And usually there's not just one big cause. It's when I let a bunch of things … Continue reading burnout.

head meets heart.

Last month was Men's Health Month. Statistically, it is estimated that 1 in 10 men struggle with mental illness. However, men's diagnoses often go undiagnosed, as men are more likely to ignore or downplay their emotional wellbeing, rather than seek counsel and acceptance. The stigma against expressing their deepest feelings is so strong that men choose … Continue reading head meets heart.

neda week.

National Eating Disorder Awareness week (February 25 to March 3) is an interesting time for those of us with eating disorders. A lot of people "come out." A lot of people share recovery stories. A lot of people talk to their friends and family members about signs that they have an ED. A lot of … Continue reading neda week.

a not so welcome surprise.

Last Saturday I had plans to join in a D&D [Dungeons and Dragons] one-shot with friends. It was Christmas themed. I had designed my favorite character yet and really invested in her backstory and skills. I had a Christmas sweater, a festive hat, and I had planned a bunch of holiday treats to bring. I … Continue reading a not so welcome surprise.

asking for a friend.

This past week I had someone ask me about how to be a good, supportive friend to someone with an eating disorder. Although she did tell him that she has an ED, he mentioned that he notices worrying behavior, and he doesn't know how to respond to it. He felt like he could ask me … Continue reading asking for a friend.

changes.

Our cat, Loki, has been on Prozac for a couple of weeks, and it has been a miraculous transformation. I do not say this lightly. A month ago, he was spraying everywhere, scratching his hives, losing hair, and crying if I shut him out of my office. Now, he does none of these things. And, … Continue reading changes.

ashes into beauty.

Last week, I was given the opportunity to witness to someone. It wasn't a huge gesture. I didn't have my Bible. I didn't quote scripture at them. It was completely unexpected. It just started from a real, no-frills conversation with someone that I work with but didn't know very well. We talked about everything from … Continue reading ashes into beauty.