taking care.

This past week was Valentine's Day. It's probably my LEAST favorite holiday because it is so commercialized and I'm not big on fancy dinners or gifts. However, it is a good time to think about love: loving God, loving your self, and loving others. While the first one typically comes easy to those who believe, … Continue reading taking care.

love that surpasses knowledge.

This week I have been reading through Ephesians, and I was struck anew about how wonderful this passage of scripture is: Ephesians 3:14-21 14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every familya]">[a]in heaven and on earth derives its name.16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your … Continue reading love that surpasses knowledge.

merry christmas.

Merry Christmas! It's been a little over a year since I started the blog, and I have met so many wonderful people through it, in addition to getting to know more about my friends and family through their own mental illness experiences. If anything, I have learned that there are so many of us out … Continue reading merry christmas.

ashes into beauty.

Last week, I was given the opportunity to witness to someone. It wasn't a huge gesture. I didn't have my Bible. I didn't quote scripture at them. It was completely unexpected. It just started from a real, no-frills conversation with someone that I work with but didn't know very well. We talked about everything from … Continue reading ashes into beauty.

be patient.

This week my husband has done an incredible job of supporting me. I know it's not easy living with someone who is mentally ill. And I'll always feel guilt over the fact that I didn't "come out" as mentally ill before we were married. I didn't intentionally deceive him. I just thought I could manage … Continue reading be patient.

the gratitude myth.

After the week (and to be honest, weeks) I've had, I've decided that when I go in for my 3-month checkup with my doctor I'm asking for a higher dose of medication. It's hard to admit this. I worry that it sounds like I'm giving up/in and announcing I'M WEAK AND CAN'T COPE. I have … Continue reading the gratitude myth.

the roller coaster.

For the most part, I consider my depression/anxiety to be fairly stable. In other words, I'm always generally depressed/anxious, and I have a few panic attacks throughout the week. It's routine, I guess. But there are moments throughout the year where I lean more towards the bipolar disorder spectrum. One week feels like I'm playing Mario … Continue reading the roller coaster.

small victories.

I've recently started a new practice: keeping track of my mental health "victories" throughout the week. This is what this past week's looked like: I bought the Fieldroast vegan sausages over other brands even though they have more fat and calories. Why? They taste better and have more protein. This was NOT an easy decision. … Continue reading small victories.

we are not selfish.

"Thank you for making X about you."  This is something that people with mental illness hear A LOT. With a physical disability/illness/disorder, etc., people believe you. They can SEE it. So, it's okay if you sleep in until 1pm, and your life only consists of doctor appointments and minimal activity. That's not selfish. But for … Continue reading we are not selfish.

a different kind of support.

There was a period in my life where it felt like death was routine. I had a dress I called my "funeral dress." I still remember the familiar black-and-white gingham pattern, the matching hair-bow, and frilly socks (hey, it was the South, after all). We had made the move from Georgia to Virginia so that … Continue reading a different kind of support.