I don't want to do this. Even as I am writing this, my hands are shaking, my mind is racing, and my heart is fluttering. I don't want people to know this side of me. I don't want to let my guard down. I don't want to seem weak. I don't want to be vulnerable. … Continue reading hi, i’m bela.
"What does it feel like?" he asked, while we hiked along Bear's Den through the pine needles and summer humidity. Strange. We'd only been friends for about 2 hours and 45 minutes, but I'd already told him some of my darkest secrets. Hesitating while I searched for the right words, I realized he was the … Continue reading hi, i’m tamara.
A note on this work: I have always secretly wanted the experience of sitting in a coffee shop writing a blog post. At the age of 25, I am proud to have achieved that life goal. “Time, as it grows old, teaches all things.” - Aeschylus Stuck in time. Those are the words that intuitively … Continue reading hi, i’m muriel.
National Eating Disorder Awareness week (February 25 to March 3) is an interesting time for those of us with eating disorders. A lot of people "come out." A lot of people share recovery stories. A lot of people talk to their friends and family members about signs that they have an ED. A lot of … Continue reading neda week.
"And so you became a model to all the believers...The Lord's message rang out from you...your faith in God has become known everywhere." - 1 Thessalonians 1:7-8 "In all our distress and persecution we were encouraged about you because of your faith." - 1 Thessalonians 3:7 This week I have been reading through 1 Thessalonians … Continue reading because of your faith.
If you have a story about mental illness—whether personal or concerning a loved one—please consider sharing your experience, either by writing a guest post, or doing an interview with me. Even if you aren’t at a place yet where you feel comfortable disclosing your name, the church body needs your voice. Let’s shine a light … Continue reading untitled.
Ten years ago I left a college in Florida that I had attended for three semesters. I returned home to Virginia to start school at George Mason University in January of 2009. I was a nervous wreck. I constantly questioned why I had been brought back home, whether Mason was the right place for me, … Continue reading control.
Six years ago Michael and I celebrated our first Christmas together as a married couple. Growing up in a big but very close family, it was weird to let go of the holiday traditions I'd grown up doing, and work to figure out what would become mine and Michael's own traditions. Not that we didn't … Continue reading holiday traditions.
Everyone can agree that the holidays are both wonderful and stressful. But not everyone realizes that people with eating disorders are under extra pressure during the October to January months. I hosted a Friendsgiving party this past week, and while I love planning events, I hate the mental preparation that goes into actual hosting them. … Continue reading holiday mindfulness.
October is over. Family visited. I traveled east and west. Planned a trip to New Orleans over Christmas. I applied to probably 100 jobs. I revised a good chunk of my dissertation. I scheduled my defense date for January. Thought/fretted a good bit about what next year might bring. And, then I woke up today, on November … Continue reading taking a breath.