In late August The New York Times published an article titled "How to Manage Mental Illness at Work." It couldn't have been more timely since I had just begun working full time for the first time in nearly four years. Previously, I had been a doctoral student, spending most of my time writing, at home, … Continue reading managing.
Each year when 9/11 occurs, I reflect on how much life changed after that day in 2001. While I didn't personally lose anyone in the attacks, I know I lost a little bit of myself the day the towers fell. On September 11, 2001, I was twelve. That morning we were sitting at the kitchen … Continue reading always remember.
Last weekend, I decided to frame my college diploma. It had been in a box under my bed, and I honestly wanted to forget about it. But I felt that I owed this to myself. It's not because I'm particularly proud of having a degree or feel the need to remind myself and others of … Continue reading framing.
One thing you might not know about me is that I am afraid of heights. But it’s a little more complicated than you might think. It’s not that I’m afraid of falling. It’s the fear that I might give in to the urge to jump. Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Thankfully, being actively suicidal … Continue reading reason to stay.
As an "academic" (as much as I loathe that phrase) with a research focus in disability studies, I have recently become more familiar with the spoon theory. I think it's a useful disability/illness metaphor as it visually represents what it's like to live with a certain condition. Photo by Joanna Kosinska on Unsplash The theory gained traction in … Continue reading spoons.
PTSD is something that most people associate with veterans. If it's not talked about in relationship to vets or severe trauma, it's sometimes just joked about in a very lighthearted manner (which is problematic yes, but that's not what I'm going to focus on here). The truth is, however, that PTSD can affect any and … Continue reading filling up.
As I wrote last week, I've been feeling overwhelmed and anxious and stressed as of late, and it's really been taking a toll on me mentally and physically. I know I haven't been in a good place, so I'm really working on improving my current way of being. Some seasons in life are just hard. … Continue reading spirit.
Lately I've felt like a body of anxiety. Mentally, I've been overthinking, over-stressing, and obsessing over every little thing. Physically, I get headaches, stomachaches, and cold sweats. Emotionally, I'm irritable and push everyone away. Photo by nikko macaspac on Unsplash It happens sometimes. And usually there's not just one big cause. It's when I let a bunch of things … Continue reading burnout.
When Michael and I moved a few weeks ago, we sold most of our stuff. We kept our books (obvi) and some clothes and kitchen stuff, etc., but we sold all of our couches and chairs and our kitchen table -- so the big stuff. As we're starting to (slowly) furnish the house, it's quite … Continue reading trust and obey.
I don't want to do this. Even as I am writing this, my hands are shaking, my mind is racing, and my heart is fluttering. I don't want people to know this side of me. I don't want to let my guard down. I don't want to seem weak. I don't want to be vulnerable. … Continue reading hi, i’m bela.